Wednesday, February 25, 2015

Knowledge is power

"Knowledge is a powerful ally in the battle against ovarian cancer"
Read this Article to see more...

Thank you Anette Mattern for posting this on FB!

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

HRT

This article goes over the risks of HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy). The findings are based on post menopausal women over 50 who still ave their ovaries.

Call me crazy, but I'm still not convinced I should take HRT. I have the prescription, I'm still on the fence. Until I'm convinced, I will deal with the hot flashes!

My mother's cancer was estrogen fueled. They still cannot figure out to this day why her body continued to produce estrogen after her total hysterectomy. So, I don't want to risk it. Why go through all this to prevent cancer, only to poison it with the same hormones know to cause said cancer in the first place? For string bones? Nah. I'm not buyin' it!


Busy bee

Post op appointment went great.

Had Mom's funeral & memorial service on Sunday. It turned out beautifully. Definitely worth all the hard work my brother, sister-in-law, stepdad & I put into it!

I will post the pictures soon! I'm in the process of moving, so stay tuned...

Thank you for all the thoughts, prayers, flowers & well wishes!

Sunday, February 8, 2015

Post-op

I go for my post op appointment tomorrow. Hopefully everything checks out ok!

They're also supposed to start me on hormone replacement tomorrow as well. I'm nervous and excited all at the same time. I'm ready to end the night sweats and moodiness, but I'm nervous that the hormones can fuel cancer.

I know it's the combination of estrogen AND progesterone that gives you a higher risk for breast cancer, but I still can't shake the feeling that maybe it's not such a good idea to be on any hormones given my BRCA-1 gene..

.......but I'm tired of waking up sweating 10 times a night!

Yea, mixed emotions for sure.

I will tell them everything and leave it up to the experts!

I bet their going to tell me I'm over doing it! It's SO hard not to lift anything over 10 lbs!!! ESPECIALLY with a toddler!!!

My mom would rub my back and tell me that it will be ok and they wouldn't give me anything that would put me at risk for cancer after all that.

I miss her.

Wish me luck!!!

Wednesday, February 4, 2015

The crying diet

Crying burns approximately 10 calories per hour.

Seems like it would burn so much more than that.

Tuesday, February 3, 2015

You are my sunshine...

Rest In Peace Mom.

There are no words.

I love you.

The hardest thing I've ever done...

Sorry for the gap between posts.

My mom's condition has rapidly declined over the weekend and she is no longer lucid.

Watching every breath she takes and hoping she's as comfortable as possible, I've let a few things fall by the wayside.. Like, eating, sleeping and my blog.

It's such a wave of emotion. I want her to stop suffering, but I don't want her to go. She's ready, so I want her to go, but I want to keep her forever. I want to crawl into bed with her and hold her until she passes, but then I know she just wants to sleep, peacefully, and not be nothered.

My brother (Kyle) and myself take turns sitting quietly and holding her hand. He was there almost around the clock with her yesterday, while Phil & I (my mom's husband) made funeral arrangements.

Both were hard places to be.

Both needed to be done.

This is the hardest thing I've EVER done. I'm an Army wife, I've given birth, had a hysterectomy at 29, been away from my husband for WAY too long, but yes, THIS is still the hardest thing I have EVER been through! I don't wish it on anyone.

Know your family history, get tested for the BRCA gene.

I love you mom. FOREVER